Which brings me back to where i was a few days ago. I dont know why i cant possibly admit it, why i cant just be straight forward about it. Which is why i try to hide it, i try and push away, i try to just not think about it, i try my hardest to fight it, but i cant. I just cant. I try to convince myself that being friends is what i want, but is it really? I dont know. I get that .. feeling around you, you know that one you get when someone you like comes close and the world is like..omg? That one, and yet i can totally be myself around you, which is what i love about you. I'll just leave it at that for now..